He makes a mangled, warbling cry - a sort of ahhHHahaughH - breath coming in short little gulps, shuddering and twitching under the knife.

"Fuck, fuck - please - please tie me down - pin me - with anything, I don't care, please, please I want it so bad -"

He didn't miss Astarion's reaction, but also it's the easiest thing in the world to let himself be utterly, breathlessly sincere about it -