"You're good at telling me what to do." Jacob's trait of being hyperaware of nonverbal cues in order to avoid punishment translates very well to being very aware of what makes Astarion moan louder.
"But I don't sleep with - people with dicks." Men or elves or otherwise. "Not usually. Didn't think it was my regular - thing."
Jacob leans down and kisses him again, gentle this time.
"Yeah. Me, too. Neither of us are good at that part." He pauses. "And I meant what I said. I don't- give a shit that you're sleeping with other people as long as you want it." He almost leaves it at that. Almost. "But - I think I'm done with it for a while. Makes shit messy, for me."
"Well, you know I don't mind either way," he murmurs, snuggling in close
again, tucking his head under Jacob's chin. "Don't feel like you need to
tell me, if that changes."
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"But I don't sleep with - people with dicks." Men or elves or otherwise. "Not usually. Didn't think it was my regular - thing."
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Astarion smiles balefully.
"I wondered for some time if I enjoyed sex at all. With anybody. It could be...difficult to tell, on occasion."
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"No fucking wonder. Wasn't something you always wanted to do. You enjoy it here? With - whoever else you're with?"
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"...Yes, I do." He looks up to him. "It is - different, with you. But I enjoy it with others."
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"What's different?"
He doesn't know if he really wants the answer to that, but it's different for him, too. And he can't articulate why.
"Cuz I- I enjoyed it with other people, too. Not gonna lie, but I don't- want to. Haven't- since your stupid party that wasn't a party."
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Astarion laughs at that.
"It wasn't meant to be a party, I was just in a celebratory mood."
But the question is still outstanding, and he's quiet for a moment. His gaze slides away.
"I just...I know I could stop, we could stop, and it would be...I don't think you'd think less of me."
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Astarion brought it up, after all. Now Jacob has to be sure.
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"No. Absolutely not. But I'm - glad, we've talked about it," he says, haltingly. "Now and previously."
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"Yeah. Me, too. Neither of us are good at that part." He pauses. "And I meant what I said. I don't- give a shit that you're sleeping with other people as long as you want it." He almost leaves it at that. Almost. "But - I think I'm done with it for a while. Makes shit messy, for me."
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Astarion nods.
"Well, you know I don't mind either way," he murmurs, snuggling in close again, tucking his head under Jacob's chin. "Don't feel like you need to tell me, if that changes."
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"I didn't know that," he argues gently. "That you didn't care. Like I said, we aren't good at the talking part sometimes."
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"...Oh. I, ah, must have assumed," he says, mildly. "I don't want to ask anything of you that I'm not prepared to offer myself."
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"That doesn't mean you don't want it," he remarks, mostly teasing.
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"...I know."
Astarion snags his side of the blanket and pulls it up over their bodies.
"And I don't. I mean it."
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He takes a long breath and lets it out, relaxing. "Tell your cat not to sleep on my face in the morning," he mutters.
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Astarion chuckles and reaches out to turn out the light.
"She does as she pleases, darling, and I'm afraid you're warmer."
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