He almost laughs. "Yeah, no shit. You're really bad at it. You were locked away and - fucking enslaved for what? Centuries? I've only known you a few months."
He steps back, raking fingers through his hair.
"I'm not expecting a goddamn miracle. Just - all that shit I just said."
"Yeah. Well, if I can't have both, I'd rather have the one that actually means the most," he mutters.
And he can get sex if he wants it. Which is a surprising thing. But someone being on his level, appreciating things he does, cutting him down when he needs it? That's what he actually cares about.
Astarion does them both the favour of not pointing out that he could very
easily have continued having both, if he'd just let him go back to his own
cabin.
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He steps back, raking fingers through his hair.
"I'm not expecting a goddamn miracle. Just - all that shit I just said."
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'Just' do all that shit. 'Just' be close to someone, bond with them, learn about them, trust them. He is expecting a goddamn miracle.
"I will be very bad at it, and you'll be missing out on some exceptionally good sex, but if this is what you want..."
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And he can get sex if he wants it. Which is a surprising thing. But someone being on his level, appreciating things he does, cutting him down when he needs it? That's what he actually cares about.
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Astarion does them both the favour of not pointing out that he could very easily have continued having both, if he'd just let him go back to his own cabin.
"I...all right, then."
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He is fully expecting not to see Astarion for a while, but Jacob also doesn't want to sit with his feelings, thank you very much.
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"Pleasant dreams, darling."
He's just going to...go lie under his cat and feel strange for a while.
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