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[sixfeetofdirt]

Careful; I bite.

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[sixfeetofdirt]

In the morning? I know this is highly unusual but I need to sleep.

Jacob paid a visit earlier, so he can confirm everything is still attached.

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[handleyourshit]

Okay. Yeah.

In the morning.

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[sixfeetofdirt]

I'm glad you're all right, damia.

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[handleyourshit]

I'll be glad to know you are, too.

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[sixfeetofdirt]

[He doesn't text her back until the following morning. Has Jacob tattled about him having a minor existential crisis at him? Unsure.]

Good morning. I'm not pretty but I'm awake.

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[handleyourshit]

[Immediately.]

I'm bringing breakfast. Be there in five.

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[sixfeetofdirt]

I'll unlock the door. Just knock before you come in.

~~~> Spam ]

[handleyourshit]

She does pick up breakfast. She is there in five minutes.

She does knock, gives it a moment, and then steps in already using one boot as a block in case the cat makes a run for it.

"Astarion?" she calls ahead of her, shutting and locking the door behind.

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[sixfeetofdirt]

"Hello, darling."

He's sitting crosslegged in the armchair in one corner, Aylin curled up in his lap. He's pulled over the chair from his work desk for Rosita to take if she so wishes.

[handleyourshit]

She swings her pack down to the floor by the door, and glances around automatically, but she's already crossing to him. She sets the tray she brought down - eggs, sausage and bacon, potatoes, and fruit; enough for two - and does in fact take the chair.

She folds her hands between her knees as she looks him over, dark eyes soft.

"Did you get some sleep?"

[sixfeetofdirt]

"I did, thank you. Dreaming always feels rather...unnatural," he admits, "but I don't remember much of it from last night. Just a blur. I think I was late for something."

[handleyourshit]

"Well, at least you'll be spared showing up to math class without pants."

She nods at the tray.

"Have you eaten?"

[sixfeetofdirt]

"No - thank you," he says, and reaches for a plate. He hasn't availed himself of any blood since the end of the breach, either but the general discomfort of the death toll has made his hunger feel less pressing.

"Is that a common dream? Appearing somewhere undressed?"

[handleyourshit]

"Supposedly it's a common anxiety trigger," she admits, reaching to pick up one of the oranges for herself, but letting him take his pick of the rest.

"Especially in the teenage years, when everything is changing, and embarrassing."

[sixfeetofdirt]

"Ah, well, adolescents are terrible creatures, I'm not surprised that they notice that about themselves," he drawls.

Having warm food to eat is - comforting, in a way he didn't expect. Maybe it's just the fact of having it brought to him? Though he does have to fend off Aylin when she notices the bacon.

[handleyourshit]

She chuckles, taking her fingerless gloves off so she won't get orange juice on them.

"Well, to be fair, their brains aren't done forming." But all of this is buffer, something she's content to allow and participate in until she sees whether or not he'll willingly eat.

And once he does: "Jacob told me you aren't doing well."

[sixfeetofdirt]

"Wretched gossips, the pair of you," he murmurs, but without rancour. "The breach was...well. It illustrated a possible future that I can't say appeals to me."

[handleyourshit]

All the same she makes sure to say, "He's worried about you. He cares about you. So do I."

He doesn't hear that enough, she thinks. She knows. She digs her thumbnails into the skin of the orange, something to take the focus off when she asks, "Tell me more?"

[sixfeetofdirt]

"It was...as close to ascension as a mortal man could get, in that world," Astarion sighed. "The means to kill anyone he chose, in his hands. A near-perfect shield from law enforcement. Nigh-unlimited wealth. Enough political influence to act unhindered. Safety. Freedom."

He grimaces.

"And it wasn't enough."

[handleyourshit]

"What was missing?"

This, she could point out, is an old parable - countless books and movies and plays and television shows about it. But Faerun is different, with different culture, different priorities, different pitfalls. So she asks instead of tells.

[sixfeetofdirt]

He's been told before, anyway.

"The common sense to stay away from large windows during physical alterations, for one thing," he drawls, but he knows that's not an answer.

He takes another bite of his food.

"...More. Of all of it. When I say it 'wasn't enough', I mean it wasn't enough of those things. And perhaps it never could be."

[handleyourshit]

"You told me that John said that," she offers.

"But being told and living through it are two different things."

[sixfeetofdirt]

"Yes, it is. And I'm not going to give him the opportunity to tell him he told me so, he'll be insufferable."

This may mean never talking to John again?? But John has other friends, so.

[handleyourshit]

"Good, because it's not about him."

She isn't invested either way in Astarion ever talking to him again, but that doesn't mean she likes the guy any better.

"So that's what happened in the breach. Where's that leave you?"

[sixfeetofdirt]

"...I don't know," he says quietly. "If I accept that power is just a larger cage, that I shouldn't want it, then...I don't know what to do."