"Then why's it matter if you call them that or not?"
Yeah, he has a fair idea what the answer might be, and he can't even pin the blame on the Admiral or a warden for this because he started fucking Astarion on his own. If fate were real it was laughing at him.
He's not sure about 'cleaner', really. There's still a lurch in his chest at the idea of being left all alone, that it'll be his own fault when it happens. But he has no idea what to do about that or even if he can do anything.
"Maybe safer," he eventually mutters, reaching over to pet the kitten. "For them."
"I'd hope so, or you're better at faking than I gave you credit for." It's said with a grin, Blitzø back to himself as though nothing happened, before he slips out the door.
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Date: 2024-04-07 11:16 am (UTC)"Not a demon, but - if that makes her my friend, then...fine. I don't really see what it matters."
It's just a word, isn't it?
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Date: 2024-04-07 11:23 am (UTC)Yeah, he has a fair idea what the answer might be, and he can't even pin the blame on the Admiral or a warden for this because he started fucking Astarion on his own. If fate were real it was laughing at him.
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Date: 2024-04-07 11:26 am (UTC)"It doesn't, I suppose. The choice I'm making is 'or not', that's all. Call it a matter of habit."
Astarion glances across at him, fixing his gaze.
"Why the curiosity?"
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Date: 2024-04-09 11:24 am (UTC)"Just wondering if they're not friends why you care if she lives or not."
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Date: 2024-04-09 11:28 am (UTC)"Well. For one thing, if I ever get sent home home, it'll be easier to stay alive if I have a seven-foot barbarian to hide behind," Astarion says.
"...I'm assuming you don't love that word either."
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Date: 2024-04-09 11:32 am (UTC)Sorry, Astarion, Blitzø isn't stupid (depending who you ask), but he does get confused sometimes.
"--I mean fuck I guess it does the job and as long as she doesn't care about it..."
geh sorry I completely misread this tag, lemme get a do over
Date: 2024-04-09 11:46 am (UTC)"No, darling." There's amusement in his tone. "The word 'friend'."
all good!
Date: 2024-04-09 11:54 am (UTC)"I don't care about the word," Blitzø says, not quite making eye contact and choosing his words carefully. "But I don't have any so who gives a fuck?"
The hypocrisy is... probably lost completely on him.
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Date: 2024-04-09 12:02 pm (UTC)"It's easier that way, don't you find?" Astarion says, reaching to carefully disentangle Aylin before she puts a foot directly on Blitzø's face.
The hypocrisy is noted and disregarded.
"It's...cleaner. And giving half a damn about whether someone has the sense to save their own life isn't the same as friendship."
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Date: 2024-04-10 10:13 am (UTC)He's not sure about 'cleaner', really. There's still a lurch in his chest at the idea of being left all alone, that it'll be his own fault when it happens. But he has no idea what to do about that or even if he can do anything.
"Maybe safer," he eventually mutters, reaching over to pet the kitten. "For them."
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Date: 2024-04-10 11:00 am (UTC)"I couldn't agree more."
Safer for them. Safer for him. He doesn't need friends, he needs safety, and what are friendships if not vulnerabilities?
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Date: 2024-04-11 09:44 am (UTC)Blitzø drags a hand down his face and, after giving Aylin another pet, slides off the bed to start gathering his clothes.
"I need a smoke and I'm not filling up this place with it. Lemme know next time you need to work out some tension."
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Date: 2024-04-11 09:52 am (UTC)"Likewise, darling. I do enjoy our time together."
He's just...going to continue lying here naked for a while.
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Date: 2024-04-11 10:05 am (UTC)