"One day is enough to worry me," he says, easily enough, "two days means I actually come and check and hazard your wrath."
He'll sit on the floor near the bed.
"And I check whenever I feel like I should. Depends on the circumstances." A soft huff. "I'm not trying to stalk you, Astarion. I just want to make sure you're all right."
"Do we have to have a talk about how I am not just leaving you to 'be fine' at some nimbus date in the future? How about a talk about what the fuck happened that this happened?"
He's going to push himself up and walk over fully to look down at Astarion, consternation and concern clear on his face.
"You're hurting. Something or someone hurt you. And if they hurt you enough that you did this, it's apparently necessary, no matter how 'dramatic' it might be."
He's aware of John standing up (and Aylin definitely is, he can feel her
moving around because something has her attention), but doesn't shift even
the smallest bit himself.
"Or you won't, just to spite me," he says with a wry kind of fondness. "Is the talking around it part of the 'pathetic' or do I get to ask who, or what, you're talking about?"
He's just going to continue to look expectantly at Astarion. Fine. No talking. The requirements for getting anything done changed again. Sure. Cool. He's listening.
"I'm not pouting. You said shut up. I shut up. I didn't say you 'brought this on yourself'. I asked specifically so you wouldn't just talk around me." He shakes his head. "I'm not leaving. That makes me an asshole. Fine. What happened?"
"You're claiming I told you to shut up, and now you're accusing me of putting words in your mouth? Gods, you're difficult to talk to," he mutters, then goes on without awaiting any response. "We had an arrangement, it ended, I am digesting that fact, give me some time."
"I'm not doing the semantics argument," because it seems like that's all they ever talk about and yes, he's picked up it's a bullshit stalling tactic. "And what does that mean without the euphemisms because if you mean 'some time to go right back to pretending like everything is fine and nothing happened instead of actually working through why you laid in bed for two days', we're not doing that."
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He'll sit on the floor near the bed.
"And I check whenever I feel like I should. Depends on the circumstances." A soft huff. "I'm not trying to stalk you, Astarion. I just want to make sure you're all right."
The obvious point being 'he is not all right'.
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"I see. Well, I'm sure you can read the room, darling."
He waves a hand vaguely at the mess.
"I'll be fine."
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"Yeah," he says with a very sarcastic tone, "I can read the room. And you aren't even in the same country as 'fine'."
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Astarion groans quietly.
"That's why I said I will be fine. In the future. Do we need to have a talk about tenses?"
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A low noise of laughter sounds from the bed.
"Just a conversation! That's all. This is all very dramatic and unnecessary, you'll agree," another little flick of his fingers to illustrate 'this'.
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"You're hurting. Something or someone hurt you. And if they hurt you enough that you did this, it's apparently necessary, no matter how 'dramatic' it might be."
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"Oh, this isn't necessary. This is pathetic."
He's aware of John standing up (and Aylin definitely is, he can feel her moving around because something has her attention), but doesn't shift even the smallest bit himself.
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He's going to put a hand out for Aylin to play with her. She's a good girl.
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"I don't really care to do anything else right now. So. Here we are."
Pathetic or otherwise, it's what's happening!
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"The passage of time. Feelings are impermanent, I've heard."
He doesn't really know what therapy is or what Sheehan's whole deal is, but he still saw his strange visual metaphor on the network.
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"...yeah, that doesn't work the way you're trying to use that."
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"I don't see why it wouldn't. At the very least, I assume that eventually I'll get tired of lying here."
Probably!
"Particularly since the cause of my behaviour is no longer with us."
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Astarion stares at the pillow in front of him for several seconds.
"John Gaius."
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"And what did John Gaius do to you?" A pause. "Or what did you do to him?"
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Another stretch of silence, then, dully:
"You really don't know when to stop fucking talking, do you."
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Astarion does not look back.
"Oh, and now you're pouting because I don't like being asked how I brought this on myself? Just get out."
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"You're claiming I told you to shut up, and now you're accusing me of putting words in your mouth? Gods, you're difficult to talk to," he mutters, then goes on without awaiting any response. "We had an arrangement, it ended, I am digesting that fact, give me some time."
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"I don't love being disposed of," Astarion says flatly. "Imagine that."
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Do not make him go to other worlds to murder your ex, Astarion, he MIGHT.
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